BAH.....my number of blogs are decreasing madly, and the amount as well. I guess cause i'm starting to feel bad at work....that......hahah no. That's a lie....ermm.....well...i dun have many reasosn to not blog...i guess it's always crossed my mind everyday, but then i'll ask myself "hrmm...waht to write about?" and sometimes i don't need my thoughts completely out there for everyone to read.
BUt i have to say that this last week was a difficult one, situations were tough, but were resolved by God's grace (of course), and so that's always good =) Our team is in the playoffs, not as high in the ranking as expected, but that's alright. But i guess the biggest thing that i'm disappointed about is the fact that we lost our sportsmanship point for one game. That not only brought us down two spots, but it really made me re-evaluate why my team's playing for the league. I know that there were circumstances that led to this, but it's really disappointing to see that the team (and myself included) can't control ourselves when things don't necessarily go our way (ie. calls, or positioning, etc.) I dunno, if we can't get all of the sportsmanship points, then we shouldn't be in this league, bc this league is about saving lives, not necessarily being safe on a play. I dunno, what do you do in those situtations? when a player gets a little out of hand and you can't control them? And if this player wants to join your team again the next year, then how should you go abotu that situation? I dunno...been doing a lot of thinking abotu softball, for next year, and/or how to improve this year. And i've just gotten more ermm...disappointed i guess. I know that this is a sr league, which makes it harder for people commit cause they actually have lives (not like me). But then what happens when you've been through one rough year, and the team wants to remain in tact. And u know that the same problems will arise next year? That the priorities of the team are elsewhere and not softball, and you knwo that you're going to have to endure another year of disappointment in terms of saving lives. THen what can u do to prevent that?? Hrmm.....so yeah been doing a lot of thinking like that....
And also about a close friend of mine and his brother. I'm really sorrie to hear about what happened, and i don't even know how to begin to bring comfort to my friend. I've been contemplating this for a while, but then i was reminded by Jon that, i don't need to say anything to bring him comfort, he just needs my presence and he just needs a friend around. Death isn't supposed to take us apart, but death is supposed to be a reminder that we will once again see each other in heaven. But if that's not the case, then death is truly a sad and tragic thing. And i think that really encourages me to keep praying for my brother; to continue to persevere in sharing the gospel with him (even if he knows it 10x better than i do). I pray that God will give him that heart to step out in faith and just let God take control. God can change hearts, even hardest of hearts, and most of the time, it has nothing to do with us. So i have to trust Him that He knows what's best.
I've kinda felt obligated to blog, but what about? i dunno.....dun wanna say anything that i might want to take back, or say too much. So i think i'm just going to keep this short and say that God puts trials in our lives for a reason. No matter how much we disagree with them or dislike them, we have to accept them as a lesson. Lessons at the time SUCK a LOT, but in the long run are always better.
"Lord, give me perseverence to live through the things that will help build me to become more pleasing in Your sight and not the sight of others.
In Jesus' name I pray, Amen "
*sigh* Ermm...it's been longer and longer since the last time i've blogged and i really apologize to those who reguarly read this!
Well, i'll try to be brief, but my hip wasn't feeling better and so i went to the doctor's. He told me that since my pains aren's superficial, that it must be deep and i must have hurt either a ligament, tendon or simply the joint capsule. So i'm on anti-inflammatories right now to hopefully reduce the swelling and decrease the pain. My elbow is also responding to the same meds, so that's good! But I really do fear many painful days in the future with my hip! =(
Jon's birthday was on the 31st of July, and i apologize for not posting on ur birthday! =( Just wanted to say Happy birthday and thanks for everything!! You've been there for me always, and even though we had this stupid rough patch caused by me, i thank you for forgiving me and coming back into my life!! you've always supported me and have really been there to listen to me! Life is never the same without u! =( So happy 21st birthday! =)
We went to summer conference at Brock! The res was SO MUCH nicer than where i was staying~! GEEZ!! I wish that i was there for the year and not in my stink of a hole i called home for 8 months! Food was decent and all of that! But the best part was Roy Summerville (like always). He was SO encouraging, yet SO challenging and it really spoke to me. I've learned a lot, and have really been humbled. I haven't felt God's presence among our congregation in a long time, but at summer conference, that's where i felt God. He was totally there and moving in all of our hearts! Roy Summerville was talking about being surprised by God and the first thing is that we have to want to be surprised by Him. ANd this summer conference has surprised me. God is awesome and His power is so great! =)
I have quite a bit of pics from summer conference, and they are on
Album. So check em out! =) We had some crazy times! ;p But still really really tired!! =( that's it for now! Gotta get back to work ;p
