I've just Graduated! But now what's in store?!
I know it has been a long time since I've last posted, but I just didn't have anything to write. I think i'm just posting because i've been really out of it lately. I've been having really odd dreams, that feel like i'm in a tv show or movie. And i'm dreaming about people that i haven't even seen or talked to in the longest time, but when i wake up, it felt so real that it makes me sad. I don't even know how to interpret my dream, but i think deep down i'm sorta feeling lonely and uncertain of the future. I know God's truths are still there, and in His time things will happen (and i know happiness is not supposed to be from worldly things), but i think the wait is just really hard to handle right now emotionally. I'm constantly surrounded by people that i love, and been keeping busy, but when I'm at home and just alone, the feelings all just come rushing back and it's just been hard to deal with. I've definitely been praying a lot more, and but i know satan still has the grip on me, and i'm trying to shake it. But it's tough, and i know that i can only do this with prayer adn strength from God. So i will keep fighting, and trying my best, and hopefully, this feeling will just disappear and I'll be able to find true happiness in God and His truth.
"For I know the plans I have for you ..." - Prov 19:11
This is probably why i haven't posted (sorrie rich), but i guess this is where i am right now. At an odd, stressful and emotional transition stage.
Long time no post
What a reading week! definitely had a lack of reading, but heck of a lot of Olympic watching and vegging on my couch at home. How exciting! =) or like snacking like i've never snacked before! Defnitely not wanting to go back to start the work all over again =( but finishing up this term will exciting too! To see what God's gonna do at EM in March, so yeah, that's definitely exciting! ;p
I dun have much more to say, i really haven't done much this week to blog about. hahah! sorrie for the boring blog, nothing more to say!
RIP MR. KENT!!
So after being deprived of Smallville for 3 weeks, i've finally caught up and all I can say is "NOOO CLARK! WHAT WERE YOU THINKING? LANA > MR.KENT!?" *shakes fist very agressively*
But otherwise, i've been obsessed with working out.. hrmm.. probably because it's right before Charity Ball (which is tomorrow). But tomorrow will indeed be a long day... as will tonight with a whole lot of ccf stuff!
DEFINITELY have complained less or not at all about busyness of school! =) And feeling much better all in all! So I think that this was a good thing to keep trying to give up!
Counting Blessings
Hey do you guys remember that song - "Count your Blessings"? It's that song that we used to sing back at the old church and it goes "Count your blessings name them one by one, Count your blessings see what God has done." And after talking and thinking about it, i've really gotta stop sitting on this "feeling sorry for myself" attitude that i'm so hung up on living with. So each week, i'm gonna try to give up one thing to God and hopefully learn to be happier. So this week will be this "feeling sorry for myself attitude". Quit complaining about school and worries to friends, but talk about funny stories, blessings and just joyous things. This will be extra challenging with all the upcoming assignments, presentations and tests i have to study for, but it'll be a challenge and i'm gonna be determined to win this battle.
Indeed it was a Happy 23rd Birthday! =)
What a day!! *Phew* i'm tired from living it, and i dunno how i'm gonna describe what a wonderful day this has been! =)
Seeing everyone that near and dear to my heart this weekend and today (sunday) has definitely been a blessing and has really reminded me of how lucky i really am. To have such wonderful friends and family who just care so much to give me parts of their day to really spend it with me.
This weekend event began with dining and sharing, and of course led to TACO sushi (well after church) with the usual lunch after ET crew, which was always good times! =) Muchos laughs, drinks, and food.. YUM!! =) Packed to head back while sharing some good talks with Adrienne, and then headed back to the Hammer. Almost fell asleep TWICE at the wheel (AIYA... so tired), to come back to play a little poker with my housemates before we headed on our journey to ALL-YOU-CAN-EAT sushi @ Sushi Star with my housemates and three special guests of HONOUR! =) That was definitely good times, and then came the trying to stall me at the CIBC, while Jan's car returned back to the house before me. And my fourth party of the weekend began! Jan, trying to distract me, tried to show me something in the sink.. deep inside (the water was RUNNING and it was DARK!), and lo and behold, i found NOTHING, but the rumblings of 15-20 CCF's nearest and dearest running towards me and yelling "SURPRISE!". ANd boy was i EVER!!! I saw the streamers, but still didn't pick up on it (aiya!). I truly was surprised, and it was SO great to see all the wonderful people whom i love in my living room in hamilton! I love you guys!! THANKS for everything, and the beautiful decorations!!! =)
So thanks for a BLESSED day, and this will definitely be a birthday i will NEVER forget! =) Still singing Jimmy Eat world - 23... SO GOOD! =)
Well back from retreat, and what a weekend!! We had the counsellor Roger and his wife Pam from UWO ACF come speak, and they both have really challenged us this weekend and what he said really shook us. But i'm really grateful for what he said, because i think it really spoke to me, and i just hope that people at CCF have responded in the same way. But i think this weekend was somethign that this fellowship needed in terms of being shaken, but also in terms of building stronger bonds within the fellowship. SO i must give a hand to the ORGANIZERS of retreat, you've outdone yourselves this year, and thanks for a great weekend! ANd i just hope that these friendships built this weekend will continue to last and we'll continue to keep growing as a fellowship.
On a crappier note, my camera won't read the memory cards anymore, just spontaneously!! SO i can't put up pictures yet, but i definitely will when i get them.
But LAST but NOT LEAST, HAPPY BIRTHDAY ADRIENNE!! =) I hope you have a special and great remainder of the day! =)
WOW... just WOW ;p
so i got my interview with Chiro letter, but crazily, i found it on the GROUND on the porch on the front house all soaking wet! (shakes fist at boys in front). Man those guys are annoying. But the thing was, here's the kicker, i got the letter on the 10th, but the letter was sent on Dec 15th! =( i even checked the mail earlier that week, but when i opened it, the money for the interview was due on the 10th! FREAKING! So i was already late for the money to be received! So i started freaking out, and then i decided to call them, and found out that i had till friday to hand in the money, and so I had to call my wonderful mommy to get me the cheque, and dropped it off to them in time. (it's kinda cool if i get in there and not PT, cause it's right at Leslie and Cummer, so close, PLUS i get a doctor degree... but 4 years! hrmm.) Anyway i have my first interview towards deciding a future career on the 21st of Jan at 9:00am! Plus i found out that there are a lot of readings to be done to prepare for this essay and interview. Oh dear! But still exciting! =)
Off to CCF retreat this weekend, and hopefully it'll be fun and a time for the fellowship to finally bond with each other in a deeper manner. So it's exciting. Can't wait to see what God is gonna do this weekend! =)
And of course, HAPPY BIRTHDAY 23rd BIRTHDAY to my BABE, SHANNON!!!! I hope you have a great trip to HK, and enjoy the scenary, but of course the shopping there! ;p
